July 17, 2002 - 12:38 am

god.......been forever and a day since i wrote in here.... seems i take the summer off huh?

well, that girl i met and started dating, worked out for about a month. then i got my ass dismissed.... i "was getting too attatched" and it "wasn't a good thing" to be happenening when she goes back to pitt. next month for school. oh fucking well.... i should be used to this by now shouldn't i???

oooo.....i got a car! i BOUGHT MY OWN CAR!! well, it won't be mine til it's paid off but it's MINE! but anyway....

i started school today. wow huh? i'm actually back in school, on my choice. i want to get my degree this time, i'm sick of working and getting nowhere...

i'm also sick and love.... i'm sick of getting fucked over, i'm sick of getting rejected... i'm fucking sick of trying to find a girl anymore... and i want to be "normal" so bad sometimes, i almost wish i could be straight or bi or something. i just want to be happy and not get left..... i'm just mentally drained with trying to find somebody.....trying to get somebody to life me and stay liking me..... it shouldn't have to be this much work!

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