April 07, 2002 - 11:00 pm

fuck love..... sometimes i'm sorry i let myself feel love sometimes....

but, then i remember how good it can feel...

why do i keep feeling? why can't i just shut of fmy emotions and not feel anytyhing anymore? i used to be abel to do that....

i love somebody, very deeply...that hasn't changed sinc we met, and i don't think i will ever stop loving them....but since i opened myself up to that love, and let myself get in, i'm open to that pain and sometimes irritation.

granted, i still love them the same, that hasn't changed. don't get me wrong ok? but what i don't understand why things happen the way they do. why can't anything ever work out? there are people out there who deserve to be happy, why can't it fucking happen? i just want them to be happy....i just want them to smile again...

they want "their erin" back from what i hear. i am me, i'm the same as i was before. but i want them back too. i want them back to the way it was before. i want things to be like they were at first, not how they are now.

why can't i make her happy anymore?

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