April 01, 2002 - 5:25 am

why do we do stupid things? we do we fuck up, and not admit that we might be making s wrong decision? i guess we are only human, but humans do have a conscience ya know! we do know the difference between right and wrong. we do know what are wrong choices to be making and what are right choices to be making. so why do we continue to fuck and make the wrong damn choices. i could be in school, i could not be forced to be single, i could have mroe things going for me other than a steady job, a nice car, and a few other non-material things. but no, i don't. i fucked up and look where it got me. i'm too young for this, i should be able to go out, have fun and enjoy myself, not worry about work the next day and if i made a mistake and when i do make a mistake how much am i going to be yelled at tomorrow. i shou8ldn't have to worry about a car payment or rent or credit card bills. it aint right, it aint fair. but, it was my choice. and i guess i have to pay for it now...

god i could use somebody to sleep next to at night....that would at least make things a little more bearable.

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