March 30, 2002 - 12:39 am

Being single is great an all, but isn't it such a great feeling knowing that somebody loves you and wants nothing more than to make you happy? That warm fuzzy feeling you get in the pit of your stomach every time you hear their voice and how great it makes you feel, isn't it the absolute most wonderful feeling in the world? What about the one who would wake up at the but crack of dawn, drive all the way over to your house, tiptoe into your room, and wake you up with a soft kiss, just to be able to see your beauty in the early morning light, then crawl back into bed with you, snuggle close, and sleep holding you till a fairly decent hour? And what about the date that ends with both of you crawling into bed, holding each other so tight that nothing could get in between, and every time you wake up during the night, they are there, next to you, sleeping so serenely, smiling, in your arms like an angel? Doesn’t that make you want to find that person who can make all the bad go away and make it all better again, by a mere smile? I’ve had that once, and only once. I had it with one person, for hardly any time at all, and I will never forget how good it made me feel inside. Just by knowing, and only knowing, is all I could ever want from another person. I don’t want a love so strong that will last a lifetime, even though deep down inside I’m looking for that in every person, I want someone to make me happy for the here and now, and someone who I can make happy here and now. Let’s face it, every one wants to be happy, every one deserves to be happy. So if every one is looking for happiness, why is it so hard to find someone? They all say the same thing, “I want someone nice, who will treat me right, make me smile…” and so an and so forth. But yet, when you meet them, and you know you can make them happy, smile, and all the other crap they want, you get shot down. You know you are what they have told you they want, what they need, and what would give them happiness. And yet, ironically, it never works that way. Deep down, so deep down you know it to be absolute truth, you are what they say they want, but they refuse to see it in you. They in fact, don’t even give you the chance to mess up; you are deprived of the chance to even screw it up with them.

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