December 27, 2001 - 2:14 pm

Jesus.......where the hell have i been? i don't even know. basics shall we?

where- work at the golf club

wearing- khaki's, black shirt, black shoes and other essentials

listening- i'm a survivor (it's the only thing on aol's radio)

what the hell has happened to me....what the hell has happened to me... i broke up with denese, or should i say i got dumped....a month long dumping too... but, as ana was saying last night (this was in reference to her christmas but it hink it suits me right now) "The sun will come out....Tomorrow..." but, it looks like tha sun came peeking out for me... and my but my life has changed.... besides losing the 3rd person i wanted to marry (YES 3 by 18....when i fall i fall hard, what can i say? but everyone of them i loved with everything i had in me and still found more to love with, but i digress...) but, we're both seeing other people so i'm letting this chapter in my life close and start a new one.

Now, for those of you who do know me, the "token lesbian" as I was so lovingly refered to by Lu @ 2nd semester lunch, is no longer the lesbian, for now at least. Yes, it's true, i've been sampling what all the straight girls are talking about (ok, so not sampling, but lets say refreshing my past tastes for them). I started dating boy-toy on the 4th (and for anybody who knows me, december 4th is a bad bad bad day for me, as well as valentines and july 28th....ok, well now we only have valentines being a bad day for me) and so far it's all been good. santa was pretty good to me on christmas, not as good as i had hoped, but god none-the-less...lol he's been great to me so far, exactly what i needed....somebody right here. there's some lil issues, but that's going to be a given. been 2 1/2 years about since i've had anybody in the same place as me so you could say i'm a wee bit frightened by this, all new to me in a way. but, i'm growing to like it more and more.... but, as i in a round-about way hinted like hell to my friends, here's an exerpt from a profile of mine...

"I spotted you dancin', you made all the girls stare

Those lips and your brown eyes and the sexy hair

I said, shake my thing and make the world want you

Tell your boys you'll be back, I wanna see what you can do

What would it take for you to just leave with me?

Not tryin' to sound conceited but me and you were meant to be

You're a sexy guy, I'm a nice girl

Let's turn this dance floor into our own little nasty world

CHORUS

Boys, sometimes a girl just needs one

Boys, to love her and to hold

Boys, and when a girl is with one

Boys, then she's in control

Pulled your boy off the dance floor

Screamin' in his hear

Must of said something about me, 'cause he's looking over here

You looking at me with that sexy attitude

But the way your boy's movin' it, it puts me in the mood

What would it take for you to just leave with me?

Not tryin' to sound conceited but me and you were meant to be

You're a sexy guy, I'm a nice girl

Let's turn this dance floor into our own little nasty world........."

aren't such the sweetheart?

well, what else... ahhh, i know... school is over, for now at least. i'm working 2 jobs, well 2 1/2 actually. i hostess in my restaurant 2 nights a week, bartend there 1 night a week, and work in a gold club with the caterers getting parties together 4 days a week. keeping myself busy aren't i? but, i'll be going back to school in september so i'll have to figure something out with the job scene...but until then...MONEY MONEY MONEY!!! hmmm, it's 2:46, taking me a while since i have been doing work at the same time.... but as one of my 2 bosses just returned, i must get going... i'll update later, I PROMISE!!!

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