May 26, 2001 - 11:48 p.m.

Less see....what to write about tonight.....

Wearing: jeans, sneakers, tee-shirt, my sweatshirt my mom got me at the boardwalk and o ther bare essentials

Mood: eh, doin alright i guess

Doing: talking to Gina and my brother

God, life sux right now to a very strong point. why can't things be easier? why is life so fucked up at times? ok, i think i should probably clear stuff up before i get you all worried about lil ole me.

here's the deal (we're gonna number this stuff)

1. I hate philly. I hate almost everything here, i love most of the people, but i hate the place.

2. Why did i ever let myself get talked out of applying further away? Am i some kind of chicken shit wimp? I guess so...

3. Ever look at all thos people with their special people and get soo jealous you can almost lose it? i like how people are happy an all, but i hate seeing them so happy when my girlfriend is about 13 hours from here and i miss her more than anything.

4. I think i know what is causing me to have soo many stomach problems lately. besides the whole food thing an me not eating right, i think they're really really really bad cramps. I know this is all nasty, but have you ever gotten pms cramps to the point of being bed-ridden nearly? i have, often....

5. WHY CAN'T I HAVE GRADUATED ALREADY?!?!?!?!?!

ok, i think that's is all that i think is bad in my life, other than that, i'm doing good. graduating in 1 week, it's 12:00am now. i leave for my soo much needed vacation in a week an a day. i can spend the summer at the shore, if i can find a fuckin job. and, soon enough but i wish it were sooner, i will have gone further away from here. i wanna transfer, and i've finally gotten the courage to start making the moves. i started some applications, just gotta finish them all up. i have 3 schools i'm going to apply to and all i gotta do is visit to make a final choice. i have someone who i love so much and miss soo much too, but it's worth it. when i can see her, life will be perfect. :) i think that life is good with these points.

wellup, i think i'm done rambling tonight. didn't do too much, but i don't have anything else besides that on my mind. nuthin else notherin me, that i can think of. and if i do think of something, which i dunno how likely that will be, i'll let the right person know. they always know how to fix everything and make it all right again. :) wow i'm corny, lol

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