April 16, 2001 - 5:35 p.m.

God, it's been forever and a year since i've wrote on this. God, what has happened...... My baby came!! She was here last Wensday til this Sat. I had such a good time. Not only did i get to see her and kiss her and hold her and just be with her, we had more than 1 day this time to do it all in. i miss her sooo much now though.... she gave me a ring.....diamond engagement ring....... it's soooooooooooo pretty!!!! i'm excited!! i love her soo much and i just hope that she is the one, i know it inside that she is i just can feel it. i just want to be with her forever..... she makes it al better when i'm with her. when she left, i cried. not in front of her, but after she got on the plane to go home. the thing is, i never ever cry. it was like i forgot how to, and i learned again. as much as it sounds bad, she made me cry. she showed me how to express that part of me and let it go out and not hold it in. i feel so much better though, even if i cried all day almost and some yesterday and thinking about it gets me all misty again.

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