April 1, 2001 - 7:57 p.m.

Geez, been a fuckin long ass time since i've been in here. lots has gone on obviously. my baby came!! it was incredible......... 7 times in less than 24 hours....go me!! i'm amazed....so fucking amazed. she's beautiful to me, nothing i would ever want changed about her at all. she is perfect for me and to me and that is all that matters to me. she has the most amazing eyes though.......perfect bedroom eyes........ ;) an this cutest dimple possible when she smiles................wow..... and her smile, heart melting....absolutly heart melting....god i'm digressing. but it was so amazing and i didn't want her to go at all. she cried, was breakin my heart so bad to see her cry. i woulda cried, but i don't know if i remember how, i just couldn't get a tear out at all. i felt so bad though, and thought about her every single second almost until i talked to her again. but guess what......SHE'S COMING BACK!!!! 11 days and my baby will be here for 3 days!! i'm soo happy...... i miss my baby soo much. seems like way to short a time, but i know i love her with my whole heart and if i could, i would stay with her forever. i think i get too caught up in this all, but i just feel it. i pray to god i'm not wrong..... i just want to be happy, and she makes me happier than anything and i want to be with her forever....

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