2001-02-26 - 22:28:51

today was my first real day back at school, an actuall full day since about friday of the week before last. sadly (more like fortunatly), i've been having problems with my stomach and other such organs that i've been home a lot. great an all that i get to sleep, but i realized not too long ago somehting that kinda makes me a lil sad i was home so much. i'm actualy being told to go to school and hang out with my freinds. granted, it's not the whole day i can what i want, but i am actually being told to hang out and learn stuff i never knew before but will need to know about for next year.

god, next year scares me. i'm not going to home and have everything made ok when they're not. i'm not going far from home at all, but i'll never be around. i know that already, i keep saying i can't wait to get out of this shithole and onto the next stage of my life. even though things are pretty good here, i want out. i want to go, live, and be free from the burdens here. this i say as i'm eating crackers and peanut butter. *laughs and shakes head* god, i'm so weird. ana is gonna end up killing me i think after school starts and we get into it next year.

i'm waiting for denese to get online. i missed her all day in school, and we were even talking about her at lunch today. well, they were all more or less asking some stuff about her. didn't get to say what i wanted to say, but that's ok. i don't mind, i would have started blushing and smiled an all again if i said some of the stuff she tells me. it's not like perverted or anything, but so damn cute and makes me sooooo happy. to her, i'm the greatest and sweetest person in the world. and i'm also sooo cute and adorable. she tells me she loves me so much and how she missed me when we're not talking and misses my vouce. there's just so many other things i can't think of that make me smile. god i don't know what to do when she's not around, and it's only been a week that we've known eachother!!

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